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Name: Ricki
Location: Minnesota, United States
Birthday: 4/25/1988
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Wednesday, August 30, 2006

wow i can not belive i found this... all these months thinking i didnt know it. but i did i guess.

schools going to start..

whats the true meaning of love. i dont get it. maybe its just a word to replace with confusing fucked up mind plus a bit of horniness and want..or to be needed or wanted.

its a crazy thing.

~ricki


Sunday, March 26, 2006

why the fuck should i smile if i'm not happy....

i'm not happy.

i hate that i go to school, smiling, when all i want to do is go home and cry. just burst out in tears, crying.

 

whats the point in living, if your unhappy all the time...

~ricki


Wednesday, February 22, 2006

(here are some lyrics to really good songs yo!!)

 

I know we're just like old friends
we just can't pretend
that lovers make amends
we are reasons so unreal
we can't help but feel that something has been lost
but please you know you're just like me
next time I promise we'll be
perfect
perfect
perfect strangers down the line
lovers out of time
memories unwind

so far I still know who you are
but now I wonder who I was...

angel, you know it's not the end
we'll always be good friends
the letters have been sent on

so please, you always were so free
you'll see, I promise we'll be
perfect
perfect strangers when we meet
strangers on the street
lovers while we meet

perfect
you know this has to be
we always we're so free
we promised that we'd be
perfect

>>>i'm in love with that song right now.<<<

 

I'm home alone tonight.
Full moon illuminates my room, and sends my mind aflight.
I think I was dreaming up some thoughts that were seemingly
possible...with you.
So I call you on the tin can phone.
We rendezvous at a quarter-two, and make sure we're alone.
I may have found a way for you and I to finally fly free.
When we get there, we're gonna go far away.
Making sure to laugh; while we experience anti-gravity.
For years, I kept to myself.
Now potentialities are bound, and sleeping under my shelf.
Simply choose your destination from the diamond canopy,
and we'll be there.
So I call you on the tin can phone.
We rendezvous at a quarter-two, and make sure we're alone.
I may have found the way for you and I to finally be free

>>>this one too!<<<

She grew up in an indiana town
Had a good lookin momma who never was around
But she grew up tall and she grew up right
With them indiana boys on an indiana night

Well she moved down here at the age of 18
She blew the boys away, it was more than theyd se en
I was introduced and we both started groovin
She said, I dig you baby but I got to keep movin
...on, keep movin on

Last dance with mary jane
One more time to kill the pain
I feel summer creepin in and im
Tired of this town again

Well I dont know what Ive been told
You never slow down, you never grow old
Im tired of screwing up, Im tired of goin down
Im tire of myself, Im tired of this town
Oh my my, oh hell yes
Honey put on that party dress
Buy me a drink, sing me a song,
Take me as I come cause I cant stay long

Last dance with mary jane
One more time to kill the pain
I feel summer creepin in and im
Tired of this town again

T heres pidgeons down in market square
Shes standin in her underwear
Lookin down from a hotel room
Nightfall will be comin soon
Oh my my, oh hell yes
Youve got to put on that party dress
It was too cold to cry when I woke up al one
I hit the last number, I walked to the road

Last dance with mary jane
One more time to kill the pain
I feel summer creepin in and im
Tired of this town again

the road.


>>>thats pretty good song<<<

 

You think you're gonna take her away
With your money and your cocaine
Keep thinkin' that her mind is gonna change
But I know everything is okay

She's gonna listen to her heart
It's gonna tell her what to do
She might need a lot of lovin'
But she don't need you

You want me to think that I'm being used
You want her to think it's over
Can't you see it don't matter what you do
Buddy you don't even know her

She's gonna listen to her heart
It's gonna tell her what to do
She might need a lot of lovin'
But she don't need you

And you just can't creep up behind her
And you can't understand that she's my girl
She's my girl

She's gonna listen to her heart
It's gonna tell her what to do
She might need a lot of lovin'
But she don't need you

>>> i like those songs right now<<<

but anyways i'm bored and pissed off, and really sad, and not, all at the same time! its driving me up a wall. people are driving me up a wall!

geez!

well i gtg do homework!

love ya

ricki



Monday, February 20, 2006

Currently Listening
40 Oz to Freedom
By Sublime
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i've decided that i'm not going to trust anyone in our school anymore. pretty much most of them are gay as fuck. so yeah. lol

anyways

i cant wait till spring break!! wooohooo!

time for sexing! jk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyways i dont really have much to say but...

i have a bio test tomorrow, i'm scared! i hate bio! i dont get it. i get HISTORY more than i get biology!!

i hate the class! hmmm...

i want to see that one justin kid again from that one school.

hmmm..

anyways.. i'm bored soo i'm gunna go study

love

ricki


Thursday, February 16, 2006

Currently Listening
Say It Like You Mean It
By The Starting Line
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if you think that for one fucking second that i will ever fucking forgive you, your head is sooo far up your ass that you don't even know what the word light means.

your a fucking bitch,and i hope everyone finds out the REAL you, because no matter how many fucking people you hide behind, and copy, your true bitchy self will shine right through.

you have big enough balls to talk soooo much fucking shit behind our backs, but now that we ask you NICELY to fucking give back some fucking clothes (worth more than you'll ever be) you send your mother to fucking come over and say that you dont have them.... but you want you PJ'S FUCKING BACK!

the only thing i could think of doing to make me feel the littlest bit better is punching you right in the face and watch you fall down to the ground. because thats were you put eveyone else

 

i'm NEVER EVER going to say i was friends with you, because we NEVER WERE. and NEVER WILL BE ever!!!

so fucking go to hell

and give back milli's stuff bitch!

~ricki



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